What is it about January? It starts with a whoohoo! All guns blazing, a promise to myself that I will write and illustrate every day. I am extremely hopeful of carrying out my set goals and passionate about writing fiction. In the beginning, everything is possible, determined to reach my destination with out a thought about my reality.
January has another plan for me. Everything slows as I sink knee-deep in the drama of every day life, obstacles and domesticity invade my space, scattering my well made plans to oblivion and the back of beyond.
I have to ask…… Is this not true for everyone? Anyone with a dream and a goal to see it through.
So what is my excuse for a jumpy start to January? A sweltering heat slows my ambition. The smoke from fires in another state, leave me breathless and sneezing. The children are still on holidays….. need I say anything more? My house is not self-dusting (I wish) and the vacuum cleaner is far from a cute little circular robot on wheels. If only my family did not need clean clothes and three square meals a day. (I’m betting most mothers say this at one time or another.)
I would be happy to oblige the kids and serve noodles in a cup every meal time, but we all know, that just won’t do. (I betting most mothers would not do this, but have dreamed of the perfect healthy meal fresh out of a pre-packaged cup). The TRUTH…..I have no valid excuses, I hear you say she does not even go to work! I know I am hoping to make my novels and books into my work. I have every opportunity to use this amazing time NOT working to do some work on my art. Yet somehow a brand new shiny day loaded with potential slips through my dish pan hands on a regular basis.
In January my favourite quote was, “Dam its too hot to do anything!”
I know positive words people. I am not giving up, my creativity burns, crackles and fizzles out. Yet I am still hopeful, a vitality comes to me in patches, I cannot explain it, the artist is impatient, it is all-consuming. This is a miracle in the heat of an Australian summer.
We can all agree life does a good job at hurling distractions when we want to focus and be productive, it will always be this way. Every creative I know has a reason NOT to create. The fight lies in my determination to focus, put my bum in the chair and make art. I must not question if I am on the right path? I must keep going on the path that has opened up to me. My stories, my way, only I can tell them from my perspective.
I look on the bright side. At least I can still fantasize about fiction, when all else fails. I can dream up images for my picture book or ask the what if’s in my novel. One more precious day and the children will be back at school.
I am not saying it will get easier but I will say I will keep on track.
Some days I find that sparkle….. and for now that is enough, there will always be obstacles in my path.
When all else fails READ……..(my favourite picture book) Where the Wild Things Are
“I believe there is no part of our lives, our adult as well as child life, when we’re not fantasizing, but we prefer to relegate fantasy to children, as though it were some tomfoolery only fit for the immature minds of the young. Children do live in fantasy and reality; they move back and forth very easily in a way we no longer remember how to do.” (From Virginia Haviland’s “Questions to an Artist Who Is Also an Author: A Conversation between Maurice Sendak and Virginia Haviland,” published in 1972, via the Christian Science Monitor.)
Now to set my inner child free and get to work. I have chosen the word PRODUCTIVITY for this year…. ignore the heat, GO CREATE.
Tell me what gets in the way of your productivity and what do you fantasize about bringing into this world?